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Gratitude and The Heart

My heart is so full of gratitude tonight. It is as if my heart is coming out of my body, as if it is swelling and swelling, and then swelling some more. Not like the quick, booming reaction Roger Rabbit has when he first meets Jessica, it isn't like the big red heart pounding outside of the chest; it is more a heart-shaped balloon filling up from within, as if on each deep breath I am filling my heart with helium. Bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger it gets until I magically see it before me, it has come out of my chest and is on the outside of my body, it is pulling me forward. It is this big full balloon heart that can carry me, that pulls me to my feet, that pulls my feet from the ground, that rises up and soars. I see myself in my mind's eye floating up above everything, I am caught by a light wind, I fly. I look all around and I see such amazing things. Then, I feel it even more. There is this wild and adventurous heart stretching out of me, and it has given me this sudden and now constant reminder of everything amazing, of these incredible feelings, the gratitude, the love, the joy, the exhilaration, the enthusiasm. It is the sum of all the awe I have for my family, my friends, my animal companions, for the intricate display of evolution in nature, for everything new I learn about the infinite cosmos. Maybe I am the Higgs boson? Maybe I am flesh materialized from energy? Maybe I have traveled zillions of miles across millennia to arrive now at this perfect place, in this perfect time, with these perfect souls to create something new and beautiful. Maybe I will continue to travel through space-time for eternity, maybe I will rediscover this amazing feeling of love again and again and again and again? Maybe I will share it, and grow it, and materialize it into art, turning energy back into matter? Maybe I already have done this. Maybe I already have done this forever. Wow! Wow! Wow! What gratitude and love and enthusiasm I have for every single moment of this experience, for the wonder of all these possibilities! This life, this world, Love.... How incredible is it all? To live in this perfect and beautiful place, to be alive in this amazing and wondrous time, to have abundant love that I feel so fully so deeply so completely it fills my energy field, is shared by others, and provides the power to transcend any obstacle. It is so amazing! How could I not bow down to a Universe that provides such power and intrigue? How could I not be overwhelming with gratitude when I know love can do anything, absolutely anything? How could I not want to stop in awe and just say a million times a day, Thank You Thank You Thank You? I can't. I must. I have to express my thanks. I have to breathe deep. I have to grow my heart lighter than air and fly above all that I love so I can appreciate absolutely every single detail of this magnificent life, so I may feel it and see it all better and more clearly and be heard as I say loudly, oh so loudly: THANK YOU.